Time to blog on this blog
After reading a few other blogs, I had realized that I hadn't touched my blog in some time. Also, are they still even called "blogs"?. I have no idea. Anyways, it's been over a year since my last post, and going back through time it looks like I started getting lazier with how and what I was posting. The onslaught of alternative social media outlets definitely played a part in my regressive blogging behavior, however, I got into this initially as an outlet for my inner thoughts and place to store them in cyberspace. Do they still call it "cyberspace" is it even a legitimate description of what the internet has become? OK, enough of the digressing.
Analyzing this blog and how it progressed over the years, revealed some pivotal moments in my life. For example, when I was laid off of a job that I loved in 2008, I had time. I had time to reflect and absorb the world around me. This came through in blogs that were descriptive, opinionated and reflective of my feelings at the time. Much of this blog is related to pop culture and the things that I thought were interesting and tickled my fancy. Not a lot of it was deep and philosophical, just good old fashion fun and junk-food for the brain. As I started working again and having less time to be "reflective" and "opinionated", the blog became more about what me and my family did on our free time. Vacation pictures, sporting events, birthday parties, etc. I started to view this blog as a running diary of family events. This is great, and is a huge part of my life, but there is the other 20%. You see, I've come to realize that my identity is no longer 100% me. My family and the importance that they play in my life has consumed much of my identity as an individual. I'm probably 80% diffused into this family soup and only about 20% or less about myself and how I identify myself. Does that make sense? So much of what I am is related to my relationships and interactions with Tisha and the kids, that the person that existed pre-family has all but withered away into that little space left for him. That twenty percent. I'm totally OK with this fact.
I do have some concerns that time is moving very quickly and fast enough whereby I may not get to do all the things I want to do in this life. The most important thing for me is to satisfy and enable my children to be successful in a world that is much more challenging than the world I grew up in. As we get older (the kids included), I feel like we will be able to share more experiences in the future that they will be old enough to appreciate. This gives me hope that the best is yet to come and when they are grown with families of their own, the pendulum will swing back towards some "me" time. Hopefully, not all of my individuality is lost by then. Hopefully, I will continue to discover new things about myself and enjoy hobbies and maintain robust relationships into old age.
So, to make a long story short, I'll try get back into blogging with some substance and mix in some thoughtful insight to go along with the vacation photos and family milestones.
